this is really just a commentary on confronting your mortality (youth = the misguided belief of boundless chance) and disorganized attachment. you can face loss early in life and still forget that time is, in fact, not on your side. you can save it all for later and then be reminded that later is not a promise. you can lose that source of unconditional love and still choose to believe there is more of it for you. and you don’t even have to be “perfect” to deserve it. you’re actually allowed—encouraged even—to ask for everything out of this singular, stupid, spectacular life, and to remember, often, that the person you loved + lost never once asked you to suffer for their sake. quite the opposite! how cool is that?
30 feels like you're suddenly forced to metabolize all of the happenstance you tolerated in your 20's. Be careful of the psychic effects of filling up all of your time. There is no need to catch up, swim under the wave. Go for some long walks, and other things that feel active but lower stress instead of increase it. It isn't a failure of your potential/value/effort as an artist if you feel left behind by the current untenable situation that is the art world. Limit comparison, even if it feels impossible, when in doubt do something different than those you're comparing yourself to. Just some light tips to hopefully avoid the existential crisis that wrecked me when I turned 30 :,,) 32 feels better.
this is really just a commentary on confronting your mortality (youth = the misguided belief of boundless chance) and disorganized attachment. you can face loss early in life and still forget that time is, in fact, not on your side. you can save it all for later and then be reminded that later is not a promise. you can lose that source of unconditional love and still choose to believe there is more of it for you. and you don’t even have to be “perfect” to deserve it. you’re actually allowed—encouraged even—to ask for everything out of this singular, stupid, spectacular life, and to remember, often, that the person you loved + lost never once asked you to suffer for their sake. quite the opposite! how cool is that?
https://access-ok.okeeffemuseum.org/object/8634/
Pink Tulip, 1926, Georgia O’Keefe. (BMA Collection)
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30 feels like you're suddenly forced to metabolize all of the happenstance you tolerated in your 20's. Be careful of the psychic effects of filling up all of your time. There is no need to catch up, swim under the wave. Go for some long walks, and other things that feel active but lower stress instead of increase it. It isn't a failure of your potential/value/effort as an artist if you feel left behind by the current untenable situation that is the art world. Limit comparison, even if it feels impossible, when in doubt do something different than those you're comparing yourself to. Just some light tips to hopefully avoid the existential crisis that wrecked me when I turned 30 :,,) 32 feels better.